I’ve been through some of my lowest lows.
While in my mind I can’t stop thinking of the hand I used to hold.
I know full well all of the pain I had caused you
My mind had me convinced to see the vision through.

A patch, a stitch, an entire new mental mapping here
In my hand practicing the path to adhere
I lick it, I stick it, and wait for me to heal.
Waiting and hoping for the time for us to feel.

Truth be told I never saw this coming.
That the anger from the holes I poked would leave us with nothing.
So I push and I prod and destroy things with my bullshit
broken to pieces laying here hoping you would say it

Even when I have the best intention
I can’t seem to help but leave the worst impression.
I spent too much time trying to be right for you
that I blew bigger holes in the things that we’ve been through.

I revel in my thoughts, desires, my wises to come true
of a life together spent with me, Kale, and you.

I get up around sometime AM
and take care of the morning things that I attend.
With a smile I look forwards to the day
thats before the demons come out to play.

They run through my mind with an explosion of emotions
I fight and struggle to silence their wicked notions.
I twist and I turn all the while I cannot help but yearn.
Until a word from from my madamsal returns.

To say it simply I’ve never known better.
A soul to grasp mine and help through the storm I weather.
The only question I that I hope to maintain.
Is when the storm settles where will I find my remains

within the angels grasp
or the demons clasps?

Today’s pain came from previous rain
I feel ashamed how I used to complain

And here I lay broken and dismembered
Offering whats left of my soul to you forever

And there it is the offering has been laid out on the table now
But the bad times seems to be weighing the scales down.

Truth be told in my mind I’m still afraid
that my true loves and desires have become too frayed

all in all I’ll cherish you forever
and dream of times when we are together

and even through all of my lowest lows
it’s thoughts of you that keeps my body afloat

I keep pushing you away with the words I say
while a battle goes on where the demons play

I wish and pray that you will lift me and pull me from this horror
and dance in my arms you and me forever

I’ve got more love than i will ever even know
more love then I had ever even shown

take me into your arms and show how you are kind
and the love I will show you will blow your mind

be mine again and I will be yours
my mind will no longer have closed doors

I just need the words that you will be mine
and I will be yours for all of time

and I will prove to you that it’s not just a phase
and love you in all ways for always.

A Blanket of arrows
eclipse the sun.
A hissing silence
…
instead of heads,
we harvest tongues!Smoke and mirrors
trick there eyes
burn there ships.
drown there lives…

Beautiful shades of red
and agent orange
tint the setting sun
dusk has come..